Faking It

For so many years, I have molded myself to whatever people have expected or wanted me to be.  This has made it incredibly difficult for me to figure out who I am, on my own, as a person.  Lately I have been on this journey of finding myself.  Call it a midlife crisis, call it whatever you want.  I call it an awakening.  The more I learn about who I truly am, the more I like myself and want to show myself to others.

This mixed media work represents the term "fake it 'til you make it".  I have put on the smile that covers tears and insecurity.  I have put on anger when I felt afraid.  I have put on over-achiever when I felt like a failure, or when I have been in so much pain I was afraid to stop moving for fear of not being able to get moving again.

It is only recently that I have learned to be more vulnerable and authentic.  A lot of that has to do with my current relationship and finding zero judgments of who I am.  I feel safe to express myself without conflict.  I feel that I can expose pieces of myself I have never been able to share with anyone else.  I find myself being, well, myself!  Fully and wholly, without reservation.  And that feels amazing!

Healing and Authenticity,

Jenny